Song Lyric Sunday: Soul

Happy Sunday one and all! I hope that you’ve had a great week and are now enjoying your weekend. I can think of few better ways to spend a Sunday morning than sorting through my music collection trying to find a track for Song Lyric Sunday which is brought to us by the lovely Helen. If you love music and enjoy making new WP friends, I urge you to play along :O)

Here are some rules for you:

• Post the lyrics to the song of your choice, whether it fits the theme or not
• Please try to include the songwriter(s) – it’s a good idea to give credit where credit is due and it’s honestly just a simple Google search
• Make sure you also credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
• Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
• Ping back to this post or my own Song Lyric Sunday post
• Read at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

 

Once there was a gardener, whose horse became a dream
It then became a nightmare, and nothing was redeemed
His heart was over shadowed, it yielded to the pain
Of lost and broken memories, of love he’d spent in vain.

There within the labyrinth, he bathed in vapors green
He poured his very essence, into pools that can’t be seen
He fell into the precipice, by choice he entered through
Dark waters yet unspoken of, a loss he could not bear to
Be true.

His fate lay among the flowers, of the desert morning
Stars
Uncharted lands and faithful hands beckon from afar
In time his eyes will open, and he will begin to see
The beauty of his innocence, free from memory.

His horse that was a nightmare, will be a promise seen
No longer there a prisoner, he’ll realize his dream
And souls will join and be reborn in the eden of his
Heart
He’ll bring forth a light of unity, from which he will
Not part.

Loving eyes will no longer pour acid on his soul
For forged within integrity his horse becomes a foal
And There begins his reckoning a freedom from the past
The pain in vain will dissipate and peace will come to
Pass.

This song has great meaning for me as I discovered it whilst having therapy after the loss of my husband. I’d been going for weeks and was close to giving up, sure that it wasn’t working; I just couldn’t open up to the therapist and I was angry that she kept pushing me to share my feelings. She, being a very good therapist, realised that I was struggling and we began talking in the abstract. I shared with her my love of horses and the peace that I always felt in their presence and she asked me to imagine walking through a forest, to a beautiful river bank with a horse as my guide. During the next couple of visits, we explored the idea further. I was comfortable on my river bank with my horse companion and began to talk about my feeling for the first time.

I honestly don’t know how I found this song but I’m glad I did as it expressed much that I was unable to say:

“He fell into the precipice, by choice he entered through
Dark waters yet unspoken of, a loss he could not bear to
Be true.”

By talking through the song lyrics with my therapist I was able to explore my grief and gradually talk to her about the life I’d had with my husband and what his loss meant to me:

“His heart was over shadowed, it yielded to the pain”

Over time, still using this song for reference, I realised that I did want to live. I wanted a life, even if it was one without love. Most of all I wanted peace, a moments freedom from the grief that was tearing me apart. I suppose that this was the first flicker of hope:

“Loving eyes will no longer pour acid on his soul
For forged within integrity his horse becomes a foal
And There begins his reckoning a freedom from the past
The pain in vain will dissipate and peace will come to
Pass.

Maybe, one day, my horse could become a foal. I clung on to that hope and started my life anew……

Lisa x