FOWC: Repercussions

He took from his brother, a tiny train, because his coveted it 

He took from his girlfriend, her innocence, uncontrolled lust 

He took from his brother, a tiny train, because his coveted it

He took from his girlfriend, her innocence, uncontrolled lust

He took from his workmates, their ideas, too proud to fail

He took from his parents, everything and more, greed and ingratitude

He took from the plates of the starving, thoughtless gluttony

He took from his servants, without thanks or a thought, pure sloth

He took from his children, their peace, his wrath without limit

He took his own life, final sin, it ended without repercussions

 

I haven’t written any poetry for a while so I thought I’d make the most of Fandango’s one word prompt for today. Thanks for inspiring me once more Fandango ;O)

Hope you have a wonderful day one and all.

Lisa x

 

Available on Kindle….

Have you ever experienced something that you know to be real but, somehow, it just doesn’t feel that way? That was how I felt when I received an email this morning which said “Congratulations, your book is now available for purchase on Kindle.”

Have you ever experienced something that you know to be real but, somehow, it just doesn’t feel that way? That was how I felt when I received an email this morning which said “Congratulations, your book is now available for purchase on Kindle.” I’ve had my Kindle for years and it stores around 450 books, all of which I have downloaded and taken great pleasure in reading. The fact that someone may now do with my book is almost unfathomable but it has happened and I think, once the shock has worn off, I will be beyond thrilled.

I joined WP because, frankly, I needed something to do. I needed to busy myself as I tried to settle in a new country and  live with the grief that had crippled me for three years. I figured that I would post something, I’d read other people’s posts and try to learn from them so that I could gather a following; I honestly expected nothing more. What actually happened was that I discovered a community, a real community that exits in harmony because all the members have a common interest – a love of reading and writing. In the ‘real’ world there is so much hatred, bitterness, cynicism – all things that crush self-esteem and make us doubt ourselves at every turn. On WP there is openness, vulnerability, humour, support, honesty and kindness, especially kindness and spending time here restored my faith in human nature.

Beyond that and, arguably less importantly, it gave me the inspiration and courage to write from my heart without fear of derision. The acceptance and encouragement that I have received here on WP opened my mind enough for a book to escape and end up on Kindle. I can’t thank you all enough, sincerely, you have given me a new lease of life which, for a long time, I thought was impossible. There are a few people that I’d like to give special thanks to:

Mike, who asked me to write a synopsis for his book and first made me wonder if I might be able to write a book one day

Peter, who is wise, kind and funny and so positive about life that you can’t help but be swept along

Fandango whose FOWC one word prompts inspired me to start writing short stories – one of them ended up turning into a book

Lorraine, who, despite having her own challenges, is unfailingly kind and generous

Darren, who is one of the first people I connected with on WP and is an all round lovely guy

River, who rekindled my interest in poetry and inspired me to write with an open heart, as he does so well.

Rory, because he puts so much of himself into WP and his openness really inspired me

Brian, simply because he never fails to make me laugh and I’ve needed that (a lot) over the last couple of years

There are so many others – Wendi, Sadje, Billy, Tom, Boo, Deborah, Ivor, Brandi, Mike…..the list just goes on and on and I appreciate every single one of you. You have helped to make a long held dream come true with your support and kindness and I toast all of you with this rather insipid virtual champagne (it’s really not as good as the real thing!)

Lisa x

What-Ho!

Morning Everyone :O) How’s your week going so far? I hope that you are having more good than bad, more ease than struggle and that it’s not raining (unless you happen to love the rain of course). You may or may not have noticed that I have been around less over the last few days, not because I don’t love being here (which I do) but because I have finally gotten around to starting a novel.  I have been playing with the idea for a few months but I am now 10,000+ words in and the ideas just keep on flowing.

Morning Everyone :O) How’s your week going so far? I hope that you are having more good than bad, more ease than struggle and that it’s not raining (unless you happen to love the rain of course). You may or may not have noticed that I have been around less over the last few days, not because I don’t love being here (which I do) but because I have finally gotten around to starting a novel.  I have been playing with the idea for a few months but I am now 10,000+ words in and the ideas just keep on flowing.

When I joined the WP family a year ago I couldn’t have imagined doing this but the support and encouragement I have received from all you lovely people has given me the confidence I needed to try and I can’t begin to tell you how grateful I am. The community here is incredible and I think it is born of a common desire: to write and it’s fired something in me which I never really knew existed. After a few years of bumbling through life I have finally found a passion again, a purpose if you will, and I want to launch myself into it. Unfortunately that means I won’t have so much time to spend with you guys, the people who helped me get to this place which makes me kind of sad.

Anyway, there is one last thing I wanted to say before I pop off for a few days and that is:

What Ho

Lisa x

 

Sunshine Blogger Award (No. 4…I think)

Morning chaps! Well, my good chum Rory a wonderful guy called bloke, is now responsible for me having to erect a virtual shelf as he has nominated me for another award. Honestly, I am really touched by this so thanks from the bottom of my heart Rory :O) Do wander over and have a chat with him, his blog is incredibly entertaining and I’m sure you’ll love it!

Morning chaps! Well, my good chum Rory a wonderful guy called bloke, is now responsible for me having to erect a virtual shelf as he has nominated me for another award. Honestly, I am really touched by this so thanks from the bottom of my heart Rory :O) Do wander over and have a chat with him, his blog is incredibly entertaining and I’m sure you’ll love it!

As always I have to apprise you of the rules (what happens if you break one I wonder…?):

Thank the blogger/s who nominated you.

Use the “Sunshine Blogger Award” logo on your post and list the rules.

Answer the 11 questions the selector asks of you.

Nominate 5-11 bloggers you want to give the award to.

Ask the following bloggers that you selected 11 questions of your own.

These are Rory’s questions and he has put some real humdingers in there…..holds nose and dives in:

Why was he called Darth Vader and not Fart Fader?

Because the storm troopers would have cracked up laughing every time their Lord and master was announced and that would have been just awful for his street cred. (I’ve added a video here because it illustrates life for Darth Vader without his creds)

What’s the worst pair of socks you have ever owned?

Every single pair. Socks are the work of the devil.

Do you think the older we get, whilst we become wiser to a certain extent we become dumber in so far as our faster progression of digital software and if so why and if not why?

I don’t understand that bit about progression of digital software but I could explain the meaning of life over a nice cup of tea if you’ve got a minute.

What is the difference between an acquaintance and a colleague?

An acquaintance is someone you choose to spend time with every now and again whereas a colleague is someone you’re forced to spend time with every day whether you like it or not

If nothing held you back in your confidence what would you cram into one day where the rest of life would be made easier because of the previous days actions?

I would spend the whole day talking to complete strangers and then hope to benefit from at least one new found friendship in the days following.

Of everything you do in a given 24 hours per day what takes up the most time?

Thinking….

If you could travel back in time and change 1 hour of your life knowing full well it will alter your current past, present and future would you do so, and if so what? If not, what prevents you from doing so?

I was going to give a joke answer to this (probably involving socks) but I won’t. The hour I would change would be the last that my husband spent on earth. He died at 2am and I’d been persuaded to go home some time in the evening; not being with him to hold his hand as he left this world is my only regret in life and the guilt will stay with me forever. If I could go back I would spend that hour with him.

Ok, so we live each day, every second, every minute and every hour of every day, week, month and year, and at which point of any given day, week or month or year would you say you feel or have felt  the most alive?

The day that I got married.

What’s more important to you? Your Phone or your wallet/purse/bag?

Definitely my bad, without that I wouldn’t have anywhere to put my phone ;O)

Uh oh! You have died before your time and you are there standing with the Maker and discussing your available options, which are:

Go back as a donkey

Go back as a walrus

Go back as a cockroach

Go back as a completely different person of 40, your choice of gender.

Stay dead.

What would you choose and why?

If you chose the ‘stay dead’ option, why did you do that?

I would choose to stay dead. Why? I am unique, there is only one of me and there was only ever meant to be one of me plus why would you want to go back when you could go forward?

Wow those were some tough questions Rory!

Now on to mine, shall I be naughty or nice…………..?

  1. If you had the opportunity to meet Jesus [or insert deity of choice] what question would you ask?
  2. What’s your favourite memory from childhood?
  3. If someone gave you a skateboard and directed you to a steep hill, would you give it a go?
  4. If it was perfectly acceptable to walk around naked would you?
  5. If you were given the gift of telepathy for one hour would you use it and, if so, who with?
  6. What would you change about your life if you knew your ‘sell by date’?
  7. What’s the funniest thing that you’ve ever seen?
  8. There is a fork in the road – one way leads to a certain future where contentment is guaranteed and the other to uncertainty with the possibility of both ecstasy and agony; which path would you choose?
  9. Days on the beach or nights by a log fire, which would you choose?
  10. If you could be guaranteed to feel no fear, what would you do that you haven’t done up until now?
  11. If you had the choice between giving 100 Christmas gifts and receiving nothing or receiving 100 and giving none, which would you choose.

There you have it, my 11 questions, and they are open to anyone who would like to answer them because I do enjoy a good free for all! However, I am also going to nominate a few of my favourite bloggers for an award which I hope they’ll accept even if they don’t fancy baring their all and answering my questions:

Braeden Michaels over at Storm of Ink – a very talented poet and all round nice guy

The lovely Brandi. A great gal to share a chat and a cup of joe

Wendi, a lovely, kind, gentle lady who can life your heart with her words

Ivor who’s a great poet, super chap and, apparently a plumber.

Dr Perry. A great guy with rare common sense and a kind heart

There you have it, it’s over to you guys now….

Have a super day one and all

Lisa x

 

 

 

FOWC: Leave

He watches her as she struggles to bring the wood in for the fire, hands cold, head down.  It had started to rain when she was splitting the logs but she hadn’t stopped, she’d raised the axe over and over again, slowly fading as her muscles grew weaker. It’s not a long walk from the woodpile to the house but she had done it so many times her step had begun to  falter.

He watches her as she struggles to bring the wood in for the fire, hands cold, head down.  It had started to rain when she was splitting the logs but she hadn’t stopped, she’d raised the axe over and over again, slowly fading as her muscles grew weaker. It’s not a long walk from the woodpile to the house but she had done it so many times her step had begun to  falter.

He watches the same thing over and over; pick up the wood, take it to the house, come back for another load. On the final trip a log drops from her arms and she swears, knowing that she’ll have to brave the cold again in order to retrieve it. In the past it would have made him smile to see her frustration but now, as he watches her faint image, blurred and fuzzy, he feels nothing but sadness.

“I’m so sorry I had to leave you to do all this alone”

She looks round sharply, sure that she’d heard something but no, there was no-one there, just her all alone as usual. She feels a tear drop from her eyes as she carries the last, fallen log inside and closes the door behind her…..

Written in response to Fandango’s one word prompt

Lisa x

FOWC: Trap

“Are you coming to bed my dear”? 

His voice was plaintiff and she tried to mask her annoyance.

“Not just yet. You go up if you’re tired, I’ll be there soon I promise”

“Are you coming to bed my dear”?

His voice was plaintiff and she tried to mask her annoyance.

“Not just yet. You go up if you’re tired, I’ll be there soon I promise”

She smiled but it didn’t quite reach her eyes, although deceitful, she had yet to learn guile.

He smiled back, his watery eyes showing his deep fondness for her, and slowly made his way upstairs. He wasn’t feeling quite right this evening and knew that he needed to rest. He loved his young wife but she wore him out with her parties and her noisy friends who seemed to have taken up almost permanent residence. He sighed deeply and mourned his lost youth.

Kathryn waited until she heard the bed springs creak; her husband seemed to do nothing but eat these days and his great bulk was offensive to her. She hoped that he would fall asleep quickly and she wouldn’t have to suffer his pawing and pathetic efforts to please her.

Sometime later a great snore rent the air and she knew that it was safe for her to leave the apartment. It was dangerous but she could not bear to be without her lover for a moment longer; she was desperate for his touch and his loving, lying words.

Henry opened his eyes and and called for one of his guards. His voice was breaking along with his heart as he called for his wife’s arrest. How could she think he would sleep when the fear of being cuckolded had been the only thought in his mind for the last week?  He would mourn his young wife like no other, she had bought the light of youth into his old age; he buried his head in the pillow and cried like a child……..

Kathryn meanwhile was lost to passion in the arms of her lover not realising that she had run straight into a trap……….

Written in response to Fandango’s one word prompt (I do love doing these, why not have a go yourself?). The story is based on the final weeks of Kathryn Howard who was beheaded by Henry VIII when she was just 21 years old, he was 51!

Lisa x

Sunshine Blogger Award

Blimey, 2 awards in 7 days, I shall have to put up a shelf at this rate! I am truly honoured to have received this nomination……..no scrap that, it sounds way too stuffy! A big shout out and a huge thank you to Sadje, a prolific and incredibly entertaining blogger; if you don’t already know her please have a wander over and check out her site, I’m sure that you’ll love it :O) 

Blimey, 2 awards in 7 days, I shall have to put up a shelf at this rate! I am truly honoured to have received this nomination……..no scrap that, it sounds way too stuffy! A big shout out and a huge thank you to Sadje, a prolific and incredibly entertaining blogger; if you don’t already know her please have a wander over and check out her site, I’m sure that you’ll love it :O)

Once again I will have to have a rummage around in my brain to come up with some answers to her 11 questions. I’m going to have a quick cup of tea and I’ll be right back…..OK, I’m ready:

What made you start blogging?

Initially it was something to do. I live alone, I hadn’t worked in some time and I’ve always enjoyed writing. However, over time it became a way to unravel some emotional spaghetti and to meet some truly amazing people. I have never come face to face with another blogger but I count a number of you as friends which is something truly incredible!

Do your friends and family support you in this?

Yes, absolutely.

Which is your favorite time of the day?

Can I have two? I love first thing in the morning, watching the sun rise with the expectation of a new day but also after dark when I can sit and relax with a glass of wine, some good music and my memories.

MauritiusWhat would be your dream vacation?

I had it. It was the last holiday that my husband and I took together; we had an amazing two weeks in Mauritius. It was somewhere I’d always wanted to go since seeing pictures of the place when I was about 18 and it didn’t disappoint. We saw and did everything we wanted to do and we laughed so much! Shortly afterwards he began chemo and that was the beginning of the end. I will never forget those two weeks although the memories are bitter sweet.

As for future travels, I want to see as much of the World as possible before I pop my clogs so I am always looking for new destinations – let me know if you have any suggestions :O)

What genre of movies you like best?

Psychological thrillers definitely. I love any film or book that gets my brain working trying to figure out what’s going to happen in the end……

What are your strengths and weaknesses?

Oh God, I remember answering this question in job interviews and always found it difficult! I guess I am very loyal and honest but I overthink and can be lazy – best I can do with that one.

Are you an emotional person?

Oh yes! Far too emotional probably.

There is no secret ingredientWhat motivates you in life and writing?

In life what motivates me is to try and enjoy every day and to experience as much as I possibly can before my time is up. With writing, I honestly don’t know; words pop into my head and they go straight to the keyboard, it’s really not much more complicated than that but I do it because I enjoy it :O)

What sort of friend are you to your pals?

I don’t have many close friends but those that I do have I would do anything for.

Have you written poetry as well?

Yes. I used to love writing poetry when I was at school and I seem to have wandered back into it in the last few months. There’s something very satisfying about organising words into a rhythm and I find I can express my emotions through poetry far more easily than with prose. I have also been lucky enough to have found some absolutely awesome poets on WP; some of their work absolutely knocks my socks off!

Being happy or peaceful, what is more important to you?

Peaceful. I strive to be happy, like everyone, but I don’t think that you can be happy all the time so I strive for peace. That way, even if I feel sad, I can accept the emotion for what it is but still remain calm. I spent so much time dealing with a torrent of emotion that now a moment of genuine peace is a real blessing.

I am now supposed to nominate 11 others but, in my experience, many bloggers don’t like awards so I am going to pose 11 questions to anyone who would like to answer them. For me, anyone who commits to a blog and shares their thoughts and inspirations with others deserves an award ;O)

  1. Socks? Love them or hate them?
  2. Is there a God?
  3. Is a pizza a pizza without cheese?
  4. What’s your favourite book and why?
  5. Do aliens exist or are we floating around in space all alone?
  6. Do you still have the teddy you slept with as a child?
  7. Brussel sprouts? Yes or no?
  8. Christmas? Do you love it or hate it?
  9. What’s sexier – a beaming smile or thigh high boots?
  10. If you were stuck with one view for the rest of your life, what would it be?
  11. Which do you prefer? Spring or Autumn?

Have a wonderful day one and all

Lisa x

Liebster Award 2018

What a wonderful surprise! I came back from Florence to discover that the lovely Rory from A Guy Called Bloke and Doodlepip’s Adventures had nominated me for a Liebster Award. I can’t thank you enough Rory, you are such a fantastic guy and I love reading your blog! You write with such candour and skill and your wonderful personality always shines though!

What a wonderful surprise! I came back from Florence to discover that the lovely Rory from A Guy Called Bloke and Doodlepip’s Adventures had nominated me for a Liebster Award. I can’t thank you enough Rory, you are such a fantastic guy and I love reading your blog! You write with such candour and skill and your wonderful personality always shines though!

As always, we have some rules to follow and here they are:

RULES

Acknowledge the blogger that gave it to you and display the award

Answer 8 questions that the blogger gave you

Give 8 random thoughts about yourself

Nominate 8 other bloggers and notify them of their nomination

Ask your nominees 8 questions

The origins of this award are as follows:

“This award is meant to encourage new bloggers. From The Global Aussie: “The earliest case of the award goes as far back as 2011.  Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome.”  The award initially focused on bloggers with less than 2000 followers, but as its popularity increased this number has gone down to 200.”

I absolutely love this award because I have met so many kind, sweet, lovely, cute and endearing people on WP that my nominations will be easy, I just wish that I could nominate more than 8!

So, here we go, these are Rory’s questions:

Are you happy with the person:

1] You are

2] You were

3] You think you will become?

I wasn’t really happy with who I was because I never felt as though I really fitted in, rather I adapted my personality to whatever situation I found myself in. I then met my husband and he helped me to break down all the walls that I’d built until I reached a point where I was very happy being me and even happier being part of a couple. When I lost him many of the walls went back up but now, almost 5 years later, I’ve rediscovered the ‘real’ me and I’m happy. As for the person I’ll become, who knows?

How many colours can you see in the image below, list them in detail.

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Gorgeous azure blue to start with as it’s one of my favourite colours. Various shades of amethyst, sulphur yellow, muted orange, a delicate light grey and a heavy sludgy brown. All of these colours are then set off with delicate touches of luscious green.

Is there anything within five feet of where you are currently typing that is a permanent feature and motivates you to explore your mind deeply?

Yes. I’m not sure it’s exactly within 5 feet but it’s the glass door that leads out to my balcony; through it I can see the sea and nothing else. It’s a picture that’s ever moving and changing and it’s a huge source of peace and inspiration for me.

How many vices do you have and of them which are your worst?

Ooohh that’s a tricky one! Immoral or wicked behaviour? I think the worst vice I have these days is a glass or three of red wine but I was pretty wild when I was in my 20’s and 30’s and experimented with quite a number of vices!

How curious are you to new discoveries, and first time experiences even if they are possibly dangerous or risky for you to try? As in will you try them, or make an excuse not to?

I’ve always said that I will try anything once!

I’m quite open to dangerous and risky but I do draw the line at bungee jumping. A friend and I went to the site of the highest bungee jump in Europe last year and I was absolutely raring to go…….until I looked over the edge at which point my knees turned to jelly, my tummy was filled with bats rather than butterflies and that was the end of that!

If you answered No Way to question 5, what prevents you from doing so?

The only thing that would prevent me from trying anything would be fear (as with the bungee jumping) but I’m doing my best to overcome those ;O)

If you answered YES Please to question 6, what motivates you to take those risks?

It’s simple. When I lost my husband, it brought home to me quite how short life is and I didn’t want to get to the end of mine saying ‘I wish I had….’

What type of song do you think our banjo player here is playing? Provide a link to what you think it might be as your answer to this question.

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The guy looks like he’s ready to set his banjo on fire so I’m going to go with:

 

Now I have to give you 8 random thoughts about me…..hhhmmmmmm…OK, here goes:

  1. I have a real problem with socks, I don’t like wearing them and can never seem to find a matching pair
  2. I love fresh truffles and would happily have them grated on pretty much anything
  3. Disney cartoons make me cry – Jungle Book, Bambi, The Lion King and don’t get me started on Watership Down!
  4. I like animals far more than I like most people
  5. I have a crush on James Spader from the Blacklist/Boston Legal
  6. I have a bit of an obsession with boots
  7. I’m incredibly loyal to the people I love
  8. I really enjoy clay pigeon shooting.

So, on to my nominations. As I said, I would like to nominate more but I’ll stick to the rules. Everyone on my list is kind and caring and just scrummy; I read and enjoy their blogs every day – I hope that you will too:

The lovely Lorraine over at Blindwilderness

Charming Darren, otherwise known as The ArtyPlantsman

Super sweet Wendi at SimplyChronicallyIll

The kind soul that is Tom over at the aptly named tombeingtom

Gentle spirit Billy who resides at goodtobealivetoday

Cute and funny Sadje at lifeafter50forwomen

The indomitable Cynthia at making peace with the wrong side of 40

Although he says he’s an award free blog I also have to nominated the adorable Peter over at Peter’s Ponderings

Right, that’s the nominees now onto the questions:

  1. If you could swap lives with someone for just one day who would it be and why?
  2. What’s your favourite thing to eat?
  3. Do you believe in reincarnation and, if so, do you have any memories of past lives?
  4. What really irritates you?
  5. Which character from Friends are you most like?
  6. What song, without fail, makes you smile (please post link)
  7. How would you spend your last day on Earth?
  8. What law would you change and why?

That’s it, it’s over to you guys now!

Thanks once again to Rory and have a lovely day everyone

Lisa x

 

#FOWC – Tantrum

Morning all :O) There are quite a few challenges and prompts circulating Wordpress at the moment so I thought I’d take up the gauntlet and give one a go. Here you have it then, my first attempt at Fandango’s one word challenge; today’s word is ‘tantrum’…….

Morning all :O) There are quite a few challenges and prompts circulating WordPress at the moment so I thought I’d take up the gauntlet and give one a go. Here you have it then, my first attempt at Fandango’s one word challenge; today’s word is ‘tantrum’…….

She is 28 years old and she stands before her husband, a rich and powerful man, 10 years her senior, with a look of defiance on her face. Her knees are weak with fear but she will be damned if she’ll give in to this bully that she married; she lifts her chin and prays her voice will sound strong…..

“What exactly are you accusing me of now?”

 She’s tired of his temper, his pettiness, all the things he does to hack away at her self-esteem. A few weeks ago he was all over her, showering her with presents and now this; she wished she could just divorce him and be done with it all.

“You know what! You cheated on me, you slept with another man; more than one!”

Her husband roars her, his spit hitting her face with the force of his words. He is determined to break her this time, bend her to his will

Despite her disgust, she does not flinch. The accusation is entirely without merit, he knows and and she knows it but rather than simply deny it she says quietly

“Prove it!”

“You’ve been seen. People have told me”

His face is red with anger and he gesticulates wildly as if to indicate her accusers. Why can’t she just admit that it’s all her fault, he asks himself; the new woman he’d been seeing didn’t get on at him like this. He’d made sure that she knew who was boss right from the start. The thought of her surrender brought a faint smile to his lips…

‘He’s mocking me’ she thought and the spark of her anger ignited

“Your so-called friends you mean? The ones who’ve been lining their pockets by sucking up to you and pandering to your ridiculous vanity?”

She’s almost laughing at him now, knowing that she’s touched a nerve.

“They showed me something that one of them wrote to you, a little love letter”

He says it in a sing song voice but his eyes are cold and it takes everything she has not to back away from him.

“So someone writes me a love letter and suddenly I’m guilty? Oh grow up!”

He raises his fist and she’s sure that he’s going to hit her, she can’t help but shy away, he’s completely lost control.

“You’re a whore and you will pay”

The venom in his voice poisons any little hope that she had remaining……

Several days later, as Anne laid her weary head on the block, she wondered at the absurdity of losing her head because her husband had lost his; it had really been nothing more than a royal tantrum…..

Lisa

x

Bloody Hell!

I’ve just realised that I’ve got over 750 followers! How the hell did that happen? Do you know what, I don’t care, I’m just so incredibly grateful to all you lovely people out there who take the time to read the drivel that I post.

I’ve just realised that I’ve got over 750 followers! How the hell did that happen? Do you know what, I don’t care, I’m just so incredibly grateful to all you lovely people out there who take the time to read the drivel that I post.

Massive hugs to each and every one of you, you have no idea how much your support means to me

Lisa x

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