Song Lyric Sunday: Lost

A very happy Sunday to all my WordPress friends, a day which always comes with the opportunity to make new friends thanks to SLS. The lovely Helen, who’s feeling poorly this week so please pay her a visit and wish her well, came up with the wonderful idea of sharing blogging and music; if you love both please play along..

The theme for this week is ‘lost’ and, as always, here are the rules:

• Post the lyrics to the song of your choice, whether it fits the theme or not
• Please try to include the songwriter(s) – it’s a good idea to give credit where credit is due and it’s honestly just a simple Google search
• Make sure you also credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
• Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
• Ping back to this post or my own Song Lyric Sunday post
• Read at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

 

2 am, where do I begin
Crying off my face again
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed

I’m a ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I’m the shell of a girl
That I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again

Too afraid, to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night
For the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me till I fall asleep

I’m a ghost of a girl
That I want to be most
I’m the shell of a girl
That I used to know well

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there’s only me
And the lonely

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again

Songwriters: Christina Perri / David Hodges

the lonely lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

The word lost doesn’t appear anywhere in these lyrics but I chose the song because that was how I felt when I first heard it. It was shortly after I moved to France, I didn’t really know anyone and I was still weighed down by the grief of losing my husband. One night I was sitting on the terrace with a glass of wine and just looking out to sea when this track started playing; the opening bars were enough to make the tears start to fall, not that it took very much in those days…….

It’s very difficult to express how you feel when someone you love dies but the line:

“I’m the shell of a girl
That I used to know well”

summed it up. I was not the person that I had been; I no longer knew myself or was even sure that I wanted to.

The beautiful, beautiful melody overwhelmed me and tears flowed freely, coming without effort but then I heard the line that ripped a sob from my throat and literally brought me crashing to the floor:

“Where there once was love
Now there’s only me
And the lonely”

I played this song over and over and over. I cried so hard that my eyes burned and I could barely breathe as I tried to rid myself of the pain that had lodged in my chest. Even this morning, as I listened to it again, I could feel the tears but I no longer feel so broken that I can’t stop them falling. It has taken more than 4 years for me to finally start to find myself again and, perhaps more importantly, to start to like myself again. I still miss my husband and the love we shared, desperately, but I am no longer lost……..

Lisa

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